nicola bonn , 34 , from london , started a candid blog called upfront mama detailing the trials and tribulations of raising her little girl poppy , 14 months , and many of her posts have gone viral .
she 's spent way too much time explaining herself and almost apologising for her decisions - and she 's decided that it has to stop .
she says , is the best and most life changing thing that has ever happened to her .